I know what I'm capable of:
19 And He took bread, gave thanks and broke it, and gave it to them, saying, "This is My body which is given for you; do this in remembrance of Me." 20 Likewise He also took the cup after supper, saying, "This cup is the new covenant in My blood, which is shed for you. 21 But behold, the hand of My betrayer is with Me on the table. 22 And truly the Son of Man goes as it has been determined, but woe to that man by whom He is betrayed!" 23 Then they began to question among themselves, which of them it was who would do this thing.
We know that Judas is the one that betrayed Christ but after walking with Jesus for 3 years, witnessing miracles, and coming to know that He was God Himself, the other 11 disciples one by one still had to ask "will it be me?" Why? Because they all knew what they were capable of.
After just over 8 years of walking with Christ one of the things that astonishes me is knowing what I'm capable of. The thoughts I'm still capable of thinking, the decisions I'm still capable of making, and the actions I'm still capable of performing are down right demoralizing at times. I take solice in knowing that the men closest to Christ knew that they were each capable of betraying Him and yet they went on serving anyway.
The most important thing is that Christ knows what I'm capable of and chooses to love me and use me anyway. If you're not in church because "you don't want to be a hypocrite" please realize that the church is full of people who know we're capable of all kinds of crazy things. We claim to be followers of Christ but often end up on roads He's not on, we claim to be delivered from things but find ourselves doing them again. If it weren't for hypocrites who would be left to attend? Come as you are! I know what I'm capable of, you know what you're capable of, but in time you will see what HE is capable of!